Artistic

I am finally feeling very artistic again, which is wonderful. I have been doing a lot of drawings of cats and impressionism work. I feel pretty accomplished with it as well, which really isn't me, I normally don't really like my art. It is nice for the first time in a long while to feel happy with something in my life, even something as small as art. New things are soon to happen in my life, and I am very excited about them. I am applying to a lot of places and hoping to get a call back soon. I would really love to find ANY job at this point.

Patrick came over today and hung out with me, it was really nice because we didn't really do much.. Just sat around and watched tv and talked. We are arguing a lot less and I feel more in love with him then I did before. I really do hope that it works out for us in the end. I know that only the Goddess and God know what is in store, and I am alright with that.

I am having the urge to read a novel, though I don't know what I want to read. I am kind of starting to not like fictional books as much as I used to. I seem to crave nonfiction, though this is weird to me because I hate the way the world is today. I also have the urge to learn something new, I really want to learn French, and I am working on it although I only have a small book to work with. I would love to get a DVD program or something, but I don't have the money right now. I also can't go to the library either because all of my missing books. Lol.. It's alright though, I will find a way to learn if I really want it.

I have learned not to sweat the small things in life, and focus on the future. I feel better about things now than I used to. Focusing on my strengths and not my weaknessses is definetly a healthier way of life. I'm looking to be moved out completely by Fall of this year. I am going to keep this goal, I really need to get out of this unhealthy (mentally and physically) living environment that I am living in now. If I want it bad enough I will get in, in time.

My mom is off this next week so her and I are going to look around at places and get ideas on costs for me. I am going to try and get some applications as well this week, though I am not sure who is hiring.

I am ready for winter to be over!